Baby Steps

That is the lesson of the day. The lesson I hope to learn....today......tomorrow.....sometime soon.

Baby. Steps.

I am an exaggerator and a drama queen. And Chicken Little. So for me to get a mature handle on my life and the things happening around me is just short of impossible. I usually spend the majority of my breathing moments completely overwhelmed because OH MY GOD, if I don't figure how to become a good friend in the next 20 minutes, whatever will I do??? Oh! And not only do I need be a better friend, I also need to get my house completely together...NOW! The pressure I put on myself. I should be fired.

So I need to learn baby steps. One thing at a time. And that thing isn't going to be perfect between now and when I roll my ass out of bed tomorrow. Patience is probably one of my worst faults (adult ADD, you guys....I just know it). I'm really not a "work long and hard to get results" person. I'm a "I want it and I want it NOW" person. a.k.a., a three-year-old.

(a little aside here....I started this post after taking half of an Ambien. And I don't remember writing any of this. Scary)

Ok, where was I? Oh yeah....me and my freak-outs.....

Now I need to decide what to work on first (the list is oh so long). Do I work on something from the social skills genre like calling people more often? Or do I pick something from the general personality traits list like live in this moment and stop worrying so much about tomorrow? What to do, what to do. I sometimes wish I could jet off to a deserted island and have all the time in the world to contemplate my navel and work through my issues in my head and I would come back a whole new person. Realistic, no?

Perhaps I will just make a list and then throw a dart at it and see what comes up. Then I'll write about my issue d'jour and what I plan to do about it! Isn't this FUN??!!